Lots of little thoughts

So, one of my classes this semester is on Facebook...not how to navigate it but we literally meet and talk on a facebook page. It is a little weird. Anyway, several of us have been unhappy about how the class is being run. There is no real structure and we don't really know what is going on. About three of us were posting back and forth about how much we disliked it. This person posted a comment that was directed to me by name. He said that I should stop being a baby and whining so much. I was shocked! First of all, I was answering a comment by another girl on there and I wasn't being whiny or mean. Secondly, I don't know why he attacked me and not the others. Anywho--a word battle ensued. I was pretty irate but I tried to remain calm and address his complaints calmly. He said some pretty rude things about me. I can't believe that someone would be so rude to someone that they don't know over nothing. I was shocked to say the least. I don't even know him or why he was so mad at me...other people were saying worse things than I was. Anyway, I found out today that he is barely out of high school. I hope that he grows up...I mean honestly, does he really think that it is okay to say mean things to people he doesn't know just because it is on a relatively anonymous site like facebook?

Ok...next thought. I really want to adopt. M and I have thought about it for a long time and I think that we are really ready to start looking into it. It probably won't happen for a few years and that is okay but I want to get started. We really need a baby girl! ; ) Even M thinks so and Cuj has been telling me for months that he wants a sister. Does that mean that we won't try for one of our own? No...probably not. But...we will see. I have been having dreams about this super precious baby that looks Hispanic but has beautiful, black, curly hair that looks more African American than Hispanic. I saw a posting for a biracial girl that was African American/Hispanic and I almost fainted!! Of course, she was already placed by the time I called the agency but it really got us to thinking that this may be the time to start.

WOW

School started today. I was really, REALLY good and got up at 5 am to workout before my 8 am class. Then I could hardly hobble into the classroom. LOL. But, I did it! Yay! I did really good on my diet today too. Until, Ike threw up and I got a stupid email from a professor that makes no sense and a bill from a doctor's office....that also makes no sense! Sometimes I think that billing "specialists" should be renamed billing "I-don't-know-what-the-heck-I-am-doing-and-if-I-do-I-won't-do-it-just-to-make-you-mad" specialists. Seriously. They are saying that we owe them over $1000 dollars and that the insurance won't pay on it but the insurance says that they haven't even received a bill yet and I HAVE ALREADY TOLD THE DOC'S OFFICE THIS!! A MONTH AGO! Now they are threatening to send us to collections and I can't get anyone at the office to even answer the phone. They sent us a "friendly reminder" to pay and that the Doc is VERY willing to negotiate payment options...blah...blah...blah. I just want them to do their job. So...I ate about 6 mini muffins and drank a HUGE glass of milk. Totally NOT on my diet but I needed some food! So...I guess today is my free day instead of Sunday. *sigh* I like Sunday afternoon snacking.

Bright Spots, on a Dreary Day

So....today has totally been a dreary day. Not just because it is dreary outside either. I have had a MASSIVE headache all day. It is probably just from staying up too late last night and getting up too early today. By the by, P90X was okay today but is still kicking my butt!! That is okay. I am sticking to it, and to my diet. Yay! I didn't think that I would make it through. I can barely walk and, let's face it folks, I AM HUNGRY! *sigh*

Then...the book that I have been waiting for finally came! It is a replica of an 1830's Book of Mormon and I am totally pumped! I heard that it is absolutely awesome to read and so, I bought it for myself as an early, way early, birthday gift. Thanks hubs for not being too mad. ;)

My other bright, shining spot today was hot chocolate. I am thankful that I stuck to my diet so that I could reward myself with an afternoon snack of Chocolate Mint Truffle hot chocolate. Yum!

Maybe this day isn't so bad after all! Even the boys are playing quietly...miracles DO happen.

BLAH...

So...I did it. I got up at 5:30 this morning and worked out. I haven't been doing very good this last month or so but I am going to start again. I also haven't been sleeping very well so I am hoping that getting up early, working out , and NOT taking a nap will help me sleep better. : ( We will see.
Anyway, the workout TOTALLY KICKED my butt but I stuck with it. I have done really good about eating today. However, the munchies are starting to seriously kick in and Mike isn't home to stop me and the kids are being....annoying!! AHHHHHHH!!!!! Ok, I can do this. But...why...why...WHY does it have to be so hard! Grrrr! These last "few" pounds had better be worth it!!

My sweet little man

Ok--so I am into the colored text lately....get over it.

I was laying my baby down for a nap today and just decided to give him a little extra snuggle, which is fun when he is tired because he will actually hold still and let me love him. Anyway, I just felt a little overwhelmed by the love that I have for my boys. I can't imagine my life without them, even though it would be easier, it would be so lonely. He started to get giggly and wiggly so I knew that it was time to lay him down. ( I LOVE HIS LAUGH) AS I put him down I was so thankful that my babies are being raised in a home of love and comfort. It breaks my heart to think of all of the babies that don't have all the things that my kids have. Even the basic things like love and comfort. I pray that I can be a blessing to my kids.

Happy New Year!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL OF YOU!!!

I am very excited for the new year! First of all, I love even numbers. I don't know why but I do. Secondly, I love new starts and a new year just feels so clean. I especially love that we start the new year with snow. It always feels so fresh and peaceful.

Soooo....last night was a bad night for the diet. Oh well. I did good until M got home from work. Then we had nachos for dinner which is one of our favorite meals. It was awesome and delicious. I tried to only eat a little but it didn't work. Then we had cinnamon rolls, candy bars and milk to celebrate the new year. We didn't make it to midnight though. The kids were in bed by 9:30 and we were in bed by 10. Guess we ARE getting oLd.

I cleaned house all morning to avoid food. My house is so clean AND I haven't snacked at all!!