Here piggy-piggy!!

Why are the pigs trying to kill us? What have we ever done to them? Oh.....besides eating them and all their parts! Hee-Hee!!

WHAT?!!!!

I just hear the craziest thing on TV. This lady was complaining because she couldn't go to Bergdorfs, I don't know how to spell it, but she was complaining that she couldn't go there because of the economy. But...not for the reason you may think. Her husband is an exec in one of the companies that just got a big bailout from the government and she is afraid that if she goes and buys things at Bergdorfs that people will be mad at her and judge her unfairly. So...she has to have it delivered!!! What a hardship!! I couldn't believe that is what she was complaining about! I have to work two parttime jobs just to buy food for my family and I am not the worst case that I have heard of!! At least I still have my home and food and money in the bank. I was so angry. I can't believe that people can be so selfish and self-centered. She should really open her eyes and look around.

Meh...

It's ok Faye. Mike really is good with the boys and the only one that I really worry about missing a meal is Ike. Corb is big enough that he is ok and Grey never misses a meal, thanks to me. But Ike is sooo skinny! But....I gave them popcorn and a fruit snack and instant breakfast and let them stay up and watch a movie and snack when I got home so it turned out ok. Mike really tries hard. But no one, absolutely NOT ONE SINGLE PERSON, is as good as Mom!! Right? Atleast I think so. I just know them better than anyone else. I am not a perfect mom but I have spent every day with them since they were born and I just know them. It will be the same for you, you will see. It is amazing!!!

MY BABIES

I never really knew for sure if I liked being a stay-at-home mom or not. I knew I loved my kids but I always wondered if I wanted more than that. You know, a career and stuff. Well, I have almost made it through a week of work and I think that I found my answer. Finally. I like working. I like Curves and visiting with the people and working out there. I also like taking care of the elderly at Ali's Angels. I get a feeling of fulfillment and I really like helping them and their families. I can make a difference in their lives by being there for them and serving them. And....I am good at it! Maybe that is prideful to say but I really am good at it. I LIKE IT!! But....then I come home and see my boys, all of them. I see them playing and I hear them laughing and I know that I am missing something. I come through the door and I can't wait to hold them and talk to them and play with them. They need me. Do you know, Mike forgot to feed them dinner tonight? He thought that I fed them before I left and I did but that was at noon! Whoops!! He is great with the kids but sometimes he forgets little things like food. LOL The other night he put them to bed without their stuffed animals and their blankies. He didn't know why Ike was sad. And it is okay because he hasn't had to do those things as often before so He just didn't know. But I do. I know what toys the boys like to sleep with. I know what they like to eat. I know how Grey likes to sleep and when he likes to sleep. I know that sometimes he just likes to lay on the floor and watch his brothers. I know that Ike doesn't like his feet covered during his nap. And I know that Corb needs boundaries on the video games! I know them because THAT IS MYJOB! I am their MOM. Hey, I love my time out and my other jobs. I don't mind helping my hubby out until he gets back on his feet. I will probably always have a little job on the side but...I am a stay-at-home mom. I love it and I know that each day is differant and some will be worse than others but I don't care. I am a stay-at-home Mom. I am.

exhaustion

Arms are so week! Legs are sooo trembly! Eyes are blurry! Mind is.........gone! I am so tired! I have been up since 3:30 this morning. I worked at Curves, came home and did what I needed to do at home (including put in a sandbox :), worked for Ali's Angels, FHE, dinner and now I AM READY FOR BED!!! I can hear my pillow calling, "Tenille...Tenille". Now if I could just get my legs to move! Darn it!!!

Home again, home again, jig-a-dee-jig!!

I just finished my first shift back at Ali's Angels. It was interesting. I had forgotten how much I like working with the elderly but at the same time I missed and worried about my boys. The only way that I can stand it is because I know that Mike is with them. I think he feels a little weird sending me to work and staying home with the boys but it will work for now. The scheduler swears that she will work around Grey's schedule so that is nice. And...we have to have money smoehow. So...until Mike gets a job it will have to do. I am really excited to come home though. I do a little jig. The boys are happy to see me too. Ike ran to the door and hugged me as tight as he could and Cuj said that he had been missing me so much. I can't really tell what Grey thought but I think he was happy! I hope it works out but I also hope that Mike gets a job soon so that I can be with my babies.

Faye

Thanks for the link. It was cool!! And I say go for...start a blog. It is fun! I have only been at it for a while but I like it.

I Dreamed a Dream...

Check out this video clip from Britain's Got Talent. My friend had posted it on her blog.

First off, this is one of my favorite songs. And second, the clip shows an amazing success story and emphasizes always following your dreams. This lady finally finds her dream at age 47. I thought it was neat, so I thought I would share. Enjoy!!

Thanks

It is nice to see that I have a few people who read my blog. Makes my writings a little less pointless. Thanks for all of your comments. Hey, Faye, now that I know who you are (HEE-HEE), do you have a blog? I love staying in touch and it seems that this is the best way for me. Blogs and facebook. I am a modern woman....sort of. By the way....what is up with this spring snow?

FYE

Well.....FYE was a no go. Mike didn't have enough experience, I guess. So we are still jobless. For now. It is a little depressing. The only good side of it is that Mike is finally getting some stuff done at the house!! Yesterday he actually did yard work. It was fun and it is nice to be able to get some things done that I have wanted to do for years. You know...I thought that I would really get sick of Mike being home all of the time, but I'm not. I love having him here to help me and to play with the boys. They love it too. Of course, we are worried about money but the time together is nice. I actually remember why I fell in love with him!! He is a fun guy! We are trying to just stay positive and productive. Mike is looking as hard as he can for a job and in the meantime we are staying busy. I think that I will take the job at the home health place, at least part time. Then we will be able to make our house payments at least. Curves, Ali's Angels, and mom. Three jobs. Wow. Oh, and Mary Kay. So...I guess four. So much for being a lady of leisure.

WORK OR NOT TO WORK

So.....Mike is still out of work. He is waiting to hear from FYE but no luck yet. AND....he is getting nervous...I think. He never really talks to me about it. I got offered a job with a respite care agency, I worked for them before, but I don't know what to do. I worry about leaving my boys. I just don't know what to do because we need the money but i don't want to do something wrong. Should I take the job or should I just stay home? AAARRRGH!!

HERE"S THE REST

Okay, so it was my Mom and Dad at the door. They can't get enough of me I guess!! Anyway, I had a lot of fun at my parents house. I really enjoy being at home and just spending time hanging out. It was cool and we ate a lot of awesome food. It was fun to visit with my sisters and my sisters-in-law and get to know them all better. However...the older I get the more truth I see in the phrase, you can't go home again. I always feel a little sad going home and realizing that it isn't my home anymore. I miss the small town I grew up in sometimes. I miss the people, people that knew me and my family. People that watched me grow up and cared about me and what happened to me. Some of them have left too but mostly it just feels like I have moved on and they have forgotten me. It is weird and a little sad I guess. I want to find a place like that for my boys. A place where they can grow up and feel like home. However, I know that a lot of that feeling is because of my family and the fact that they were there. I hope that I can help them get that feeling in our house. I hope that I can find a place that will give them a good childhood. One like I had with lots of love and fun.

Family

I just spent the night up at my MOM'S house and I had a lot of fun!! My MOM'S birthday is in a couple weeks and I wanted to throw a surprise party for her. It was fun! Mike kept the older boys home and ate pizza and spent time with them. I took Grey with me and we trekked up to Idaho for some fun. Oops...someone at the door, be back soon!

sigh

Well....the day has started. The boys are fighting and yelling already and I am tired. I can't seem to get them to just play and be nice. They fight over the games and tv and toys and anything that they can. I want to scream and go crazy!! I think that I just need to be nicer to them and not yell so much so....I try. I don't know if it really helps or not. It seems to. Especially with Corbin. He responds better to kindness. But lately he cries about everything. I guess it is just the age. At least I hope so. This madness goes on forever it seems. Then, all of the sudden, we have a day or two that they get along great! No fighting, no yelling. Just kindness and fun. I wish it could always be like that. Sigh.....

WORK

A mom's work is never done it seems. I am up again, at 4 in the morning, getting ready for work. I will be home by 8 and then my "day job" will start! The kids keep me hopping and running all day. It is exhausting! Would I trade it all? Probably not. I love my kids! Even if they are all boys!!