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Today has not been a good day. :(

Yeah....okay....I really want to do good on my diet but then I see something that I really want to eat and...I eat it. Sick, I know.

Maybe I should just give up!! What do you think? Should I keep trying? Are the last five or ten pounds really worth it? I worked out this morning but I don't think it will do me any good.

Confession....I at about four pieces of pizza. Yeah they were small but that doesn't really matter. Then, of course, I couldn't resist a few pieces of Christmas candy and a piece of M's Bday cake. Then I had to have some milk to drink.

I guess that I will just have to try harder tomorrow. I don't want to give up and be like this forever but IT IS HARD. I hate not being able to eat what I want, when I want to.

Sigh....double sigh.

Fat Busting 2010!

Ok...I know that losing weight is like, the number one new year resolution. So...ok...I am not original, who cares!! I do not think that I am fat but having my precious little ones has, let's say, changed me. I WANT TO GET AT LEAST SOME OF IT BACK!!!!
So...this year I AM GOING TO LOSE 10 POUNDS. That is all, just ten. I am realistic. My other goal is to exercise every day no matter what. I am going go to the gym 3 days a week and lift weights and do some cardio/ weights at home every day. I am. I will be a new slimmer me before we know it. JUST YOU WAIT!!

Brigham City Temple

I can't believe that we are getting a temple!! I never really thought that we would because we have so many that are so close to us. I mean, Logan and Ogden and both 30 minutes away and Salt Lake City is only 1 hour. However, I am so excited!! I know that it will probably take a few years for the temple to get here but I can't wait. As soon as I heard the news, I got my boys and we all held hands and said a prayer of gratitude. I was so excited that I cried. It sounds small but having the temple here will cut an entire hour off of our temple time, which is huge when you have kids. Especially when you have a baby. It is hard to get someone to watch 3 boys for 2-3 hours. So....taking an hour of is HUGE!! I can't wait. I love gong to the temple and the feelings that I get when I am there. I love that my family can be together, forever if we are faithful. I can't wait to find out where they are going to build it. I can't wait!!

Fickle, Fickle, Silly as a pickle!!

I am so fickle and silly!! Mike started his new job today and cried like a baby. Last night I cried and this morning I cried. I whined when he didn't have a job and now I am whining because he does. I was just a little sad to see him go back to work. I have really liked having him home. He has been a big help with the kids and he is good company, usually. You all know Mike. He is so laid back! Not that he didn't annoy me at times because he did, but over all we had a lot of fun and I liked having him here. Sigh. I guess that I am just never happy. I get what I want and I am still sad. Fickle, fickle, silly as a pickle!!!!

So...I was having a dilemma today. I can't find any clothes that fit me. My skinny clothes, from before the baby, are too tight still and my fat clothes, from after, are getting too big. The ones that do fit me were all dirty because I am soooo behind on the laundry. Ask Holli, she has seen my laundry pile. Anyway, as I was standing there trying to find something to wear, the solution hit me. I AM BECOMING A NUDIST!! Do you know how easy my life would be? I wouldn't have to try to find something to fit or even worry about what to wear at all. And...I wouldn't have to ever do laundry. Hmmm...something to think about, eh?

Fat or Flat

Ok, so I am not perfect at it but I have been really trying to lose weight. I have been trying not to eat as much, especially sweets, and I have been doing ok. I have also been working out and running two miles 3x a week. However, nothing seems to be getting any smaller. Nothing except my bustline. It is maddening!! The things we want smaller just keep growing or stay the same and the things we want to stay the same or get larger, shrink, sag, or dissappear. I am not asking for much. I don't want to look like a super model. I just want to feel good about myself and feel pretty. I just wish...I don't know. I just wish that I could lose the weight and not lose my....assests. And...I wish Mike would get a job so that I could get more clothes. Nothing I have fits me anymore and I think that makes me feel worse.

Whine, whine, whine whine, whine....

Sometimes I feel as if I am acting like my kids. I feel like I whine nonstop. I guess I could claim that I have a hard, terrible life and that I am justified in whining. Or....I could just admit that I am a whiner! Ike and I have to be tested for celiac disease. It is basically an intolerance for wheat or anything with wheat, gluten, rye or barley in it. If you don't know, those things are in basically everything. The things that they aren't in they are added to. It sucks!! If Ike and I test positive then we will have to avoid anything that has those things in them. Suck, suck!!